In us I trust.

I haven’t written about the election here because frankly, I’m tired of politics. I skipped all the political and election-related posts in my Google Reader. I muted every political hashtag on Twitter. I didn’t even log on to Facebook on election day.

And more than being tired of politics, I’m tired of being told how to feel, how to think, how to make what should be my own decision. The conservatives in my life don’t understand how I can be as socially liberal as I am. The liberals in my life don’t understand how I can be as fiscally conservative as I am. And I’m stuck in the middle, trying to make sense of my feelings to other people, when I shouldn’t have to, because those feelings make sense to me.

But what any one of us thinks or feels doesn’t matter in the bigger picture. Because progress is happening. It’s slow, but it is happening.

In 2008, I correctly predicted that Barack Obama would be the Democratic nominee for president over Hillary Clinton. Why? Because he’s a black man, and black men had the right to vote before even white women did, and history repeats itself. But how long did it take to end slavery? How long after that to extend the vote to black men? And how long after that to extend the vote to women? It may take another forty years before we see a female president, but it will happen.

What people forget about this country is that we’re the United States of America. United. Every state has their own culture, and each one has their own idea about individual policies. But we all come together to create this country. We are a community in spite of ourselves.

And communities change over time. Twenty years ago, could you imagine a black man being elected president? Because he just was, for a second time. And all those guys who talked about rape like it was a picnic on a lovely Saturday afternoon? They lost their bids for political office in 2012, even though 1992 – an age long before Twitter and Facebook would allow their gaffes to be so widely advertised – might have seen them win.

Twenty years ago, would an openly gay woman have been elected to the senate? Would three states have voted to legalize gay marriage? Would a state in the Midwest – America’s Heartland - have struck down a ban on same-sex unions?

Honestly, I don’t think so. But times have changed, and minds have changed, and we are making progress.

Whatever we are as individuals, whoever we are within ourselves, we are all part of this country, this community. Our voices are as unique as we are, and even the most extreme among us help to moderate the collective voice. This is why we keep moving forward. This is why we keep demanding better.

This is why I trust us.

Kony Island

I am over this Kony 2012 nonsense. So when I stopped by my normal coffee shop today to pick up my usual almond milk mocha and saw this poster, I died a little bit inside.

I don’t know what bothers me more: That my coffee shop is taking a political stance I don’t agree with, or that this poster will make people think that Joseph Kony is running for president.

Giving Up

I’ve blogged and tweeted and Facebooked incessantly about the war on women’s rights for the last several months, especially with this being an election year and major decisions being made in that arena.

And now, sadly, I think that has to come to an end.

When I married Dan, I knew his thoughts and feelings on abortion. And he knew mine. And after we discussed at length the hypothetical situations in which abortion might be necessary – ie. a pregnancy threatened my life, or our teenage daughter became pregnant by consensual means or otherwise – I felt that I was comfortable enough with his proposed actions in those circumstances to move forward with our relationship.

But in recent weeks, it’s come to my attention that I can’t be both politically engaged and happy in my relationship. Yes, I disagree with Dan’s views on a fundamental level. But assuming we never have to encounter the aforementioned situations, it’s not a fight that needs to be fought. And yet, the current political climate leaves me feeling like I have to fight that fight all the time, because his views are misogynistic, or paternalistic, or blatantly ignorant, or all of the above.

Could I have gone running for the hills after that first date where I realized Dan was a legit Republican? Definitely. Did I? No. Why? Because political views aside, Dan was and is a good person. He is gentle and kind and respectful. He is responsible and hard-working. And he is going to be an amazing father when we finally get around to having kids. (Though in the meantime, he’s an amazing father to our four furbabies.)

Could I have dated and eventually married some other guy who would have agreed with me on all things political? Sure. But would he have shared the TV with me when baseball season and football season overlapped? Would he have given me foot massages even though it had been weeks since my last pedicure? Would he have taken me out for sushi on date night even though all things fishy made him gag? I honestly don’t know.

The man I married, like the relationship we share, is special. I don’t want to see him or our marriage hurt because we can’t see eye to eye on political issues that ultimately don’t – and may never – affect us. And so as much as it pains me to do this, I am going to disengage myself from political issues involving women’s reproductive health.

This means that I have to say goodbye to the dream of someday working for Planned Parenthood, goodbye to the dream of someday finishing all the books on abortion that currently litter our living room, and goodbye to following Feministing on Twitter. (Seriously, do they post about anything else?)

This may seem severe, but for me, this is the only way to handle this situation. My compulsive nature requires that I am consumed by my interests (puppies, baseball, Chinese food, etc.), so there is no way for me to have a relationship with politics and a relationship with my husband. I have to pick one or the other.

And I pick Dan.

Going Against the Grain: My Grandma on Abortion

Bubby wrote me an email in response to my post on abortion last week that I wanted to share here. Not only because it reiterates the point I was trying to make in my original post, but also because it shows how far-reaching the desire for equality is.

Contrary to what many conservatives seem to think about members of the pro-choice community, Bubby is not some twenty-something woman who wants access to abortion because she wants to have casual sex without consequence. She is a mother, a grandmother, a woman who made a career and a life for herself, and wants other women to have the opportunity to do the same thing.

An excerpt of the email is below, published with her permission.

Why would [your husband] want to live his life having sex on a schedule? — Sometimes contraceptives fail. How would he feel having a passel of kids he could barely support ? How would it affect your marriage — or anyone else’s for that matter— if you were to start a family unexpectedly — long before you were ready?

Having an abortion goes against the grain. But how about young people? Sexual instincts sometimes take over one’s senses. What about the young girl just about to start college and make her dreams come true? What does she do? I shudder when I think of deliberate abortion but I find it even more horrible when a young woman’s life veers so completely off course because of an interlude that ended in unprotected sex.

Sexual activity  among young people, not totally committed to each other, is a reality these days and another reality is that every woman needs to be allowed to take full responsiblity for her own body  and live with the emotional consequences of a decision to abort her fetus. I believe that most woman would be racked with guilt. However it’s her life and her body and NO ONE should be in a position to dictate how she treats it !!! — In a similar vein —  I think Tattoos covering ones entire body is vomitatious. I don’t hear any outcry  trying to outlaw that procedure.

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THE DECISION TO HAVE AN ABORTION IS A WOMAN’S RIGHT!!!!!

Cue Head Explosion

This post was inspired by this cartoon, which I found today on Facebook:

I am at a loss. I think I haven’t been writing very much because lately, I just feel like I am without words. The utter insanity that goes on in this world is beyond my comprehension. I just don’t know what to make of it.

Dan and I had a fight last week that lasted for what seemed like forever. All of our fights are generally sparked by the day-to-day goings-on of our marriage, but, like all fights, they seem to have a basis in bigger issues. For us, the big issue is abortion.

It seems irrational, right? To fight about something with your partner that has no bearing on your relationship? But the voices against women’s rights have grown so loud lately that it’s hard not to let them seep into your brain, and into your daily life. It also doesn’t help that Dan and I have drastically different views on the subject.

Dan truly believes that abortion is murder. He believes that life begins at conception and that the only instance where abortion could even be considered is in an instance where the mother’s life is being immediately threatened by continuing the pregnancy. He believes that abortion should be neither legalized nor banned on a national level, and should be left to the states to decide. However, my understanding of his personal opinion (and correct me if I’m wrong, Dan, because I know you’re reading this) is that abortion should be illegal.

My opinion has a significant gray area. I believe life begins somewhere around month six of a woman’s pregnancy, when the fetus / baby (depending on your terminology of choice) is viable outside the womb, with or without medical assistance. I would probably never have an abortion anyway (especially now that I’m married and could feasibly raise a child), but as far as I’m concerned, any time after viability is off-limits.

For me.

And that’s where we differ.

My opinion is just that – my opinion. I still believe that abortion should be safe and legal and a viable option for anyone who wants one. And if that means three weeks or twelve weeks or twenty-eight weeks into a woman’s pregnancy, that’s her choice, not mine. As uncomfortable as it may make me, it is not my body, and it is not my future, and it is not my decision.

Dan and I got into it a few weeks ago, after he pulled the “adoption is an option” card and I argued that pregnancy is difficult enough, and then you’re going to make that woman give her child away? His response annoyed me beyond anything else he could have possibly said. He told me that pregnancy was just as hard for men, because they have to be the providers of foot rubs and pickles and deal with all the womanly crazies that go on for nine months (all of which, I might add, could have been avoided had you given this woman the option to terminate).

Oh, yes. Very difficult.

But rather than laughing at him outright, which is what I wanted to do, I made a point he couldn’t – or at least didn’t – match.

“Even if pregnancy is as hard for men as it is for women,” I said (hopefully without giving away how ridiculous I thought that statement was), “You have a choice to be there. You choose to stay with your partner, you choose to support her through that pregnancy, and you choose to be there for that child once it’s born. All women are asking for is the same choice.”

All women are asking for is the same choice. The same choice that men have, to have a family at twenty-one or to wait until they’re older. To deal with pregnancy and childbirth by accident or to actively plan for it and want it. To potentially be settled in their careers and committed to a partner they love before they bring a child into this world. All women are asking for are the same rights that men have now, and have always enjoyed.

All we want is equality.

For Your Reconsideration

This past Sunday was the 39th anniversary of the Supreme Court’s Roe v. Wade decision, a major milestone in women’s rights.

I know that right now, Dan (and any other conservatives who read this blog) are groaning, God, is she really going to talk about abortion again? Well, yes and no. “Yes” because I have some facts and research that will be pertinent to this post. And “no” because that’s not really what this post is about.


COURTESY OF THE GUTTMACHER INSTITUTE

Per the above graph, women’s rights have been under attack in a major way in recent years. And while abortion is a controversial topic, it, like any other medical procedure, ultimately is no one’s business except for the women undergoing the procedure and the doctors performing it.

Here’s another fact: Politicians can restrict abortion all they want – but the procedure is never going to go away, particularly since it has existed and been used since the dawn of time. In the book I’m currently reading, Forever Amber, a historical fiction novel that takes place in England in the 1660s, the main character has three abortions before the age of twenty-one. Why? Because contraceptives don’t exist yet, and sex happens.

Even after abortion was initially outlawed in the United States in the nineteenth century, abortifacients were still advertised in women’s publications, and were the go-to solution for women wanting to prevent illegitimate births and control family size and spacing of their children. And in Alfred Kinsey’s studies on human sexuality in the 1950s, he found that up to ninety-five percent of the women he interviewed still regarded abortion – regardless of its illegality – as a viable solution for unwanted pregnancy. So it’s not hard to deduce that the 1973 Roe v. Wade decision to legalize abortion was in response to the demand that already existed for the procedure.

I could go on and on, but I won’t, because that’s not the point of this post. The point of this post is that I want to do something to help. I want to further women’s rights, and specifically fight for the cause of reproductive justice. Because even though I’ve never had to make the heart-wrenching decision of whether to continue or terminate a pregnancy, it’s not my place – or any one else’s – to make that decision for someone else.

I’ve worked in education since before graduating college. And while I love the student interaction I have, I often feel like a cog in a machine. I answer questions and respond to emails, but what am I really doing to educate these students, or anyone else? How am I helping them become the people they will be when they graduate?

I think it’s time to consider a career change, because I want to be someone who makes a difference. And I’m not sure if that’s working in marketing for Planned Parenthood, or teaching a gender studies class at the local community college, or what. So now begins the research. I need to figure out what I want to do, and how to get there. It may mean another master’s degree. It may mean an obscene commute. It may mean years of volunteering before I find something that involves a paycheck. I really have no idea. But I’ll keep you guys updated.

I lied.

I’m not going to post today. Because today is the national protest against SOPA, a ridiculous piece of legislation which I recently blogged about. Millions of sites all over the web are turning themselves off today, including Google, whose logo for today is this:

Do yourself and everyone else who uses the internet a favor, and contact your congressional representative to ask that they oppose SOPA and its cousin, PIPA. You can take action here.

Why marriage equality is important (for people, not toasters).

Kelly posted this awesome graphic on Facebook and I had to share it here for a few reasons:

  1. It SO CLEARLY explains how basic civil rights are being violated on a daily basis, and I think this explanation is important for my fellow Californians who voted for Prop 8 in 2008 (not to mention homophobic Americans everywhere).
  2. The toaster / corpse / dog argument. Like, WHAT? Do people actually believe that giving someone the right to marry another consenting adult will also give them the right to marry an inanimate object or pet? (Response to this: If I’m female and I declare my toaster male, couldn’t I technically marry “him” now? What about same-sex marriage specifically makes this any more or less feasible?)

Anyway, enjoy. And please share!


Translated

I found this on Facebook and had to share it here as a follow-up to the obnoxious ad released by Rick Perry that I blogged about earlier this month. This comic is BRILLIANT. Perhaps even better than the parody videos all over YouTube. Because it’s not just a response – it’s a translation. If you read between the lines of the fluffy rhetoric Perry is spewing, this is what he’s really saying. And HOLY SHIT are people really going to vote for this?!


COURTESY OF FOR LACK OF A BETTER COMIC.

The Right Reaction

Everyone knows that the gays are ruining the world. Right? I mean, they’re out there, corrupting our children and screwing their fellow soldiers and making presidential hopefuls who don’t like them look bad.

THE HORROR.

For the record, that was sarcasm. But this isn’t: A recent campaign ad, posted to YouTube earlier this week by Republican Rick Perry, is under fire for being a prime example of homophobia and complete douchebaggery.

 

Perry hits his stride with the line, “There’s something wrong in this country when gays can serve openly in the military but our kids can’t openly celebrate Christmas or pray in school.” Frankly, I don’t understand how one has to do with the other. You’re mad because your kid can’t have a Christmas tree or give thanks to Jesus in their public school classroom? I’m sorry. Why don’t you send them to a private Christian school, where those behaviors and observances are encouraged? Public school is run by the state, which, per our constitution, is to be kept separate from church. Or have you forgotten that your admittedly religious founding fathers did not intend for their faith to interfere with the operations of their government? That’s probably something a presidential candidate should be aware of, is it not?

Then there’s his weirdly phrased shot at Obama: “As President, I’ll end Obama’s war on religion. And I’ll fight against liberal attacks on our religious heritage.”

Uhhh, what?

Last I checked, Obama identified as Christian. And as a raging liberal myself, I find that he’s been very moderate in his support of LGBTQ and women’s issues, both of which are huge points of contention with the religious right. So all I’m getting out of Perry’s statement is that he thinks that anything Obama does to further the rights of anyone who is not a by-the-Bible Christian (aka. the gays) is “anti-Christian.” Which is definitely not the case (or the intention).

I think the video below, a clever reaction to Perry’s ad, sums it up best: “You know there’s something wrong with this country when politicians think it’s okay to hate on gays and non-believers in ads, as if their magic spirit guide, or whatever, blessed them with special a-hole privileges.”

 

Rick Perry may believe in God, but I’m pretty sure God – and a lot of other people who have seen this ad – would think Rick Perry is a jackass.